10th Anniversary

For my 10th Wedding Anniversary I have to say I am at a loss for what to get my husband. I have tried so very hard to get him a pre-order of the PlayStation, however the Amazon Gods and other fine retail establishments have decided that they are no longer taking pre-orders. Mind you I have been trying to get a pre-order for like months.
So back to square one, and hoping like all get out that the day of I will manage to purchase one at the store..ugh!!
Alas this is a milestone and I want to celebrate as though it is something special. I do not want this day to be "just another day" as all of my other anniversaries have been. I want to go somewhere and see something. I want to eat something we both normally do not have on a daily bases. For the love of all that is holy I DO NOT WANT MEXICAN!!! I want something like Greek or French food. I want something with a flare of exotic. I want to go somewhere it is cold and some place where we can bring our son, cause we both love having him around and things can still be memorable with the love of our lives.
So planning must commence! I thought about getting my one and only all three seasons of "Game of Thrones." In addition to the PlayStation...oh I use the PlayStation as well for movies and working out it is not just a him item.
The only thing I want is for one day to remember why we are so into each other and to make this day special and unlike any other!
Now Supernatural is coming on I have to go!! Until next time!!

Oh Halloween

Oh how I love Halloween!! I love the lore, the costumes, oh and the treats. Every year I try so very hard to make my decorations old Victorian but never seem to find anything. Then I tried colonial, and most of that I was able to get from Martha Stewart. However, I still stand firm that woman has way too much time on her hands. I mean half the stuff she recommends is just super time consuming.  Yet, I love it. 

I know I must hate myself.
This year I am not decorating, since I am not in the mood to decorate I am going to be baking harder then Miss Betty herself. I have downloaded my recipes, I have cut out my stencils for the air brush effects I might attempt. This is gonna be so fun.
I am excited to watch "Shaun of the Dead" AGAIN!! I am eager for more "Supernatural" and my new favorite, though it has been my favorite story since I was small,  "Sleepy Hallow."
Aside from the football, veggie chill and the cool weather this is why I LOVE fall. I love love fall and winter. I could do without summer!
I am keeping this short but I plan on posting more soon. Until then...keep watching all those Nerdy shows. I think the "Big Bang Theory" is on and I am gonna watch it.

Why Seth Rogen...Why?

This is probably going to be short. I have a selected group of actors that I would run to the theater and watch. Seth Rogen, James Franco, Jonah Hill and of course my duo from England Simon Pegg and Nick Frost are just the comedians I adore. So of course when I have a moment of free time I'm going to watch one of their new moves. In comes the movie "This is the End." I loved the humor of this film, even all the way till James Franco gets saved and tells those around him to do something to his man part. (use your imagination here.)

I was sad at this point but when it got to another point in the movie where they had ended up in Heaven I was down right  WTF mode. 

I would thought Seth would would have wished for James Franco back, and I would have excepted Jay to have wished James back for his friend Seth. After all the film is all about friendship. However, that didn't happen. So that leaves me to ask Why Seth? I thought James was your homie? :) Which leads me into my second question....Will there be a "Pineapple Express 2"? Cause that would be awesome. So to answer your movie question, Yes you should make sequels to all of your films...well most of them..

Oh and by the way what the heck did Emma Watson do to not get saved! Too funny!! 

The Lecture

Recently I have been thrust into a situation that is less than desirable. I am living in a place that I do not like. I would rather be burned at the stake then live here another day. However, this is the situation that I am, and it is something that has happened to me due to circumstances beyond my control.
I have a friend, lets call her Amy, who used to be a close friend. A best friend if you will, but alas after high school she and I did what normal people do after a while. We grew apart. She stayed in the town I hate and I moved to a different town.
Temporarily I have moved back to this town, and she and I have started our friendship up again as though nothing has changed. I still no longer use her as someone to confide in, I tell her the summary of things going on in my life but nothing that is secretive. However, this doesn't stop her from judging me and lecturing me on things she knows nothing about.
She wasn't shy about explaining to me how much of a loser I am and how I have allowed this situation to happen. Mind you I didn't plan on a member of my family becoming disable. I was working on my bachelor degree, I wasn't working when all this occurred. When things came crashing down I tried very hard to get another job, so I could stay where I wanted to stay. However, that didn't happen. I am finding it much harder to get a job since I have been out of work for so long even though I have been keeping up with my skills. I have gone through agencies telling me I have no skills, though the ones they expected me to have were none I have ever used in a professional setting. I have been through countless interviews where they look at me with sadness and tell me that I would be perfect if I was bilingual. The hill I am working up isn't easy but I'm trying. Having a "friend" tell me that I am not doing everything I need to do and I should be ashamed for applying for jobs in a place I don't want to be. By the way she wants me to apply for jobs here, but I am not....I mean why would I want to be in a place I don't want to be. My husband and I have figured out where we want to be and how we are going to get there. I just do not understand why she feels the need to comment on things she doesn't understand. When asked were I was planing on living she snorted at my answer. Why? Well, I assume it was not the place she had hoped. She then asked me what was in this town we wanted to move to. My first answer wanted to come out as "NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS" however, I didn't say that I informed her that my husband had uncles near by. She pursed her lips in frustration. I have been mean to other friends before when they were doing things that continued a behavior that hurt them. However, I NEVER stopped being supportive to someone when they needed it. I am wondering why in the world she felt the need to belittle me and then to proceed belittling me behind my back to other friends. Amy finds my husband to be a loser, I don't understand how he can be though of as a loser. Things occurred to him, by no fault of his own. He didn't ask to be hurt at work, nor did he put himself in harms way.
I wish she would take a moment and think that with all the layoffs she could have been cut from her job as a teacher, and her husband could easily become disable as well being a cop. So question..why isn't she more of a friend.
A true friend would say..."Hey there is a position at work you can do until you find something better. I can talk to my boss..." not lecture you about things beyond your control.

Selfishness with a hint of Narcissism

Today I like to reflect on an epidemic that is killing our young. It is nothing you can fight with medicine. This condition is highly contagious and is caused by almost every behavior imaginable. Buying a gift for someone can cause this silent relationship killer. Telling someone they are special, over and over can also create this condition. Telling someone they are pretty can lead to devastating results.
There really isn't any way to keep it from happening, it is after all human nature. We all have a tendency to be, gulp.....selfish. Or so into ourselves that we fall in love with ....ourselves.
However, some are affected more than others. Just so you know there is a scale for selfishness.
Some are just part time selfish, others are career selfish people, then you have the teenage selfish and the worst selfish is drug addict selfish. Narcissism has no scale, you are just way into yourself.
I know none of this makes sense, unless you have been affected by someone who suffers from this condition. Just know there are other people out there who understand what you are going through. If you have no one I will hear your tale of woe! I understand and I know what it feels like to have someone suck the life out of you because they only know how to love themselves.
It isn't easy but you will get through it, and they will get over themselves. Eventually. Or they will end up alone with just themselves, but hey they love themselves so much I guess they would be better off alone.

Feeling a little blue....

I have sadly come to a point where the things I normally do for fun are now annoying. I love reading, but I can't seem to get myself to do it without falling asleep. Writing feels more like a chore suddenly and I am not very happy about feeling as though writing is a stranger suddenly.
The best time of the year is coming around, Fall, and I'm not excited. I feel as though it could just come and go or just not come at all and I wouldn't care.
The only thing that I feel like doing is sleeping. I made myself workout this morning, I made myself open the computer but the more I look at it or the more I write with it the more I want to put it away.
I was given a super complement about my legal writing yesterday but I didn't get the rewarding feeling of a job well done.
Aside from not wanting to write or read, which is horrible in it's self, I have no idea why I am feeling this way. I want to cry until an answer comes to me but that would just take too much time.
I keep thinking it has to do with my current living situation, and the more I am unable to help with that I think that is why I just wanna sleep and do nothing else.
The truth is I'm just making up reasons as to why I am feeling the way I am. The truth maybe something I just don't want to here.
As the days pass and I get closer to my tenth anniversary I am trying to get excited. I am trying to come up with things that we can do but the more I come up with something the more scared I get about leaving. I am not even sure there is anything to be afraid of.
Except there is a leach living among us that doesn't know when he is not wanted. The more I learn of him the more I don't trust him and the less I want to leave him alone with my things. If only I could take a pencil and erase him!
Now how to make myself feel better, that is the one true question I must continue to ask myself!
Until next time I hope you are having a much better time than I am!

Day at the gun range!!

This has been the hardest couple of months I think I have had to endure. So many changes have occurred, my faith has been shaken a bit and to top it off my anxiety has been tested. I have had to resort to taking some anti anxiety meds a couple of times, and if you really knew me you'd know that was a big deal for me. I do not like taking meds. In fact I try to muscle through headaches, and sometimes through migraines. I fail about two hours into the headaches but I try!
So today my husband thought I needed a bit of therapy and since I am all for getting out of the house these days I jumped on the chance to go shooting.
I have to tell you I had a blast! The ear muffs squeezed the crap out of my head, but I had a grand time. I started out shooting a little .22, then I went to my husband's rifle.

The fact I was unable to keep the damn thing in my shoulder bothered me, but I muscled through and I did a grand job! So while I was there I was told I should up my game a little, and by doing so I needed to shoot a .40. I did, and I liked the heavier gun better then the little .22 I started out with. I seemed to do a much better job hitting my target then I had with the .22. Of course my father in law felt I needed to go one more. So I shot a .45! I am a small person and only weigh about 120lbs. Now having said that I was a little nervous about the kick I would get from the gun. However, the kick was the least of my problems. I had a few shells fly into my shirt and burn my skin. That is something I was not prepared for! I am proud of myself for not getting hysterical and waving a loaded gun around while the shell case burned my skin! I laughed it off and mentioned how the firing of a gun smelled an awful lot like firecrackers. Of course that was probably the smell of my burnt flesh! 

So while I was shooting I did get a lot of things out of my system. I just imagined my problems as the target and I shot away. I will admit it was a quick fix and once I got home everything came rushing back again as though I had never left but the fact is I got some relief. I also thought to myself what a fun experience. There was nothing to be afraid of. The entire time I was educated on how to hold the gun to how to load it and switch the safety off. My husband had offered to load my magazines (Terminology may not be accurate!), but I opted to load the magazine myself. At first I found it hard, my left hand isn't every strong and holding down the slide was a bit difficult. I managed to muscle through, and then I loaded the gun. All the while my husband, who has been shooting since he could use the toilet on his own, made sure I did what I was supposed to. He reminded me a few times to keep my finger off the trigger when I wasn't going to shoot or when I was just aiming. All in all I felt really proud of myself for going on this outing. I have always been an advocate for the 2nd Amendment but now I would have to say I UNDERSTAND it. By that I mean I simply get why it is important, and why gun education is the key to losing the fear about guns. If only everyone could take the time to learn a little about guns and gun safety they would see there is nothing to be frighted about. 

Now, I have to say I am not the best little shooter in the world as you can see from my picture! 

I may have been all over the place but I made a few count!! Now I am sure you will see that there is no sign of the .40 or the .45 and I will tell you why! When I shot the .40 I used a different target and the .45 I just didn't hit the mark. I managed to hit the hill side behind the target though!! Ha ha, at least I hit something! 

I think this is going to be a regular thing and who knows perhaps I may purchase my own lady weapon! Look out shooting competitions, I won't enter you but I'm a new spectator!