Monday 26 May 2014

What I wanna Study...

Often times I am asked a silly question of what it is I want to study, to eventually write about. I find myself going back the fifth grade where I was introduced to the English Monarchy. Since then I have always been so very fascinated. I don't know if the appeal of the monarchy is the drama of it or the simple fact that we in the US do not have royals. I am not so into the scandals, ie who slept with what cousin..blah blah. I am more interested in the politics. The stories behind the people wearing the crown or claiming to have a stake in the crown.
I was in the mood to watch a period peace so I watched a mini series on Elizabeth I. I have to say she must have been a complicated woman. A lonely woman mainly, but extremely intelligent. and complicated I might want to study her only to know what made her tick.
Hell even Elizabeth II is interesting in her own rod iron back way.
My fingers are already itching to write something in that period with some kind of scandal! The inspiration from real life is something one can simply not make up.
I mean Elizabeth and her cousin Mary, going back and forth over who was a heretic! The fight over a crown from brother to brother is gold when trying to come up with something new.
I am getting inspired now while thinking about it!
Of course this all makes me think of Game of Thrones. All the backstabbing, and undermining is something I don't know if I could ever come up with. I find myself deconstructing the story while watching it just to try and figure out a way I could come up with something just as compelling. Even though I hate using an outline, I am finding it is very important when trying to keep ideas strait. Or even to keep them consistent. Of course a map wouldn't hurt...HBO! Sorry side note that I really need a map for Game Of Thrones...I don't wanna navigate my computer during the show.
So the challenge this week is to come up with a complicated character that is both likable and hated. Kind of like the love hate relationship I have with Jamie Lanaster.
I'm off to start that journey wish me luck and Keep It Nerdy!!!



References

Martin, George R.R. Game Of Thrones. Bantam Books, 1996. Print.
"Winter is Coming." Game of Thrones. HBO. New York. 17 April, 2011. Television. 


Sunday 18 May 2014

You're such a.....(Fill in the blank)

Have you ever had someone at work who you just couldn't please? 
No matter how many I's you dot or T's you cross, you just can't seem to get anything right! I mean you can write a simple email, write a simple letter-that is mind you already drafted all you do is change the names-yet you can not get it right? The person who you can't please just doesn't like anything you produce! Do you know how frustrating that is? Do you know how belittling it feels? 
I don't understand even when I draft an email using the same dialogue he approved or wrote on previous emails, yet I still can not seem to get anything right.
I am now at the point where I don't even put any effort into what I do, why should I? After all it is just going to be wrong? 
So how to handle to this? 
Other than crying my eyes out I am not sure what can be done. I have worked with some difficult people in my day but NOTHING like this. There is just no pleasing this person. What is worse is he shouldn't even be there anymore! I am suppose to be taking his place, and it has been almost three months. 
All I want to do is to do my job well. I want to be good at what I do. I am tired of "getting" things wrong. I am sick of being told how much of a disappointment I am.  Especially, when I am not doing anything wrong! I know how to write a damn letter! I know how to ask for information, there is no need to call the person I just spoke with right back to see if I am wrong! 
All this has caused me so much stress and it makes me wonder just how stupid I really am. I try to do things to make myself feel better such as: "Buck up girl you got a B in Statistics". 
I just don't know what to do aside from blowing my lid! 
I am so close to screaming at him that if I don't do it now I might implode! 
I'd love to hear if anyone has any ideas how to handle this, or even other work nightmare stores! 
Until then..deep breath and Keep it Nerdy! 

Sunday 11 May 2014

Where the Hell Have I Been?

Life gets in the way of so many things. You want to spend all your time writing on your blog or working on your book but your life demands you pay the bills! You want to get your BA in English Lit. you so may explore the world of English as a teacher or copywriter. But again you have to pay the bills, so you work. Then the family wants you to take trips. AND BOY DID I!!!
I fell in love, that is what happen to me.
I went to Oregon and Washington and I just fell head over heals in LOVE!!!
My heart goes pitter patter every time I think about being in Oregon or Washington. What made it even better was we are planning making Washington our HOME!!! Nothing could make me smile as big as I am right now as this does.
Here I thought the "Veronica Mars" movie was the best thing to happen to this year!
Just yesterday I was thinking nothing could bring my high down, when my son made us go and see "The Amazing SpiderMan 2". Or as I now like to call it the "Andrew Garfield and Emma Stone love story. There were moments where I wanted to go to sleep and I LOVE movies, even romantic movies! I LOVE superhero movies. Hell I'd date Captain America if he were real. However, this was just insulting.
What is going on with stories being too long and coming together only after hours of nonsense? Why is it always one extreme then another. Such as on one hand we have a movie loaded with action and absolutely no story...TRANSFORMERS!!!...then we have a WAY too much story and a brief fart of action. UGH!!!!
So now that I have finally posted something and I've gotten a little off of my chest. I am happy to say I have set up a schedule to get things back to normal!! Soon my fingers will be smoking I'll writing so much.
Until then Keep it Nerdy my friends.